Thanks so much you guys. I really really appreciate your responses.
I really like the idea of giving myself a pat on the back so to speak, about doing even just small things. I'm feeling better now too. Not great, but supported and better. People in my life do care about me, they just have their own lives. And don't always know when I'm hurting.
Thanks for being so supportive. I am talking to my psych nurse this week, and also my therapist. Take care.