Really? I mean I doubt the talking part, it's the matter of confidence or the impression it maybe more meaningful experience than the superficiality of small talk. I talk a lot very out going, but I'm introverted because I use my outgoing mask to push others away and see how people act.
From what I saw most girls and guys like people who don't talk much and keep themselves chill, but I said the same thing about myself. I mean as a guy many girls expect me to talk a lot, I do I charm and do what I can do right, but it doesn't mean a friendship or anything will be guaranteed.

Most of the time I'm told to shut up. I also have moments where I do exactly what you do, but when I want the same things, but it's another mask I have to see how people act when I don't talk. I do this for a long period of time for months showing how I really am sorta with my introverted side.

It does good for me as well, but I never was expected to talk.

I am sorry for about that's going on, but you already know not to let people change your quietness to extinguish the silence. It shouldn't be your job if you don't want to take it and if you do it shouldn't be regardless. I think you seem to know this as much, but I kinda wish people would come talk to me.

My last question does it make you lonely,

"because I find it lonely to be expected to talk or not talk a lot or people just are too picky and needy about what a perfect friend or conversation would seem like from that person, it's like why even bother."

I'm asking do you get lonely and experience that as well?