Just want you to know I understand. I have times when my legs feel like I am dragging cement blocks. I have done a lot of laying this weekend as well staring at the TV. I just want you to know you are not alone. I mean I know that is very little help..but just know that you help me by being here and being honest about your experience. I feel that embarrassment as well over my lethargy..I also seem to experience a lot of feelings of shame when I do go out. Its really difficult . Don't know why or where that stuff originates. I feel like people look at me and can see the bad person I am. Which rationally I KNOW is ridiculous. Its a deep feeling though. Sometimes I feel like I am a monster (Im not). I hope things change for you..and me..and the many like us who suffer from such confusing and hopeless feelings.
Its cool you do have a husband and your not alone!
take care

love northbelle