I also know if is very hard to do. I just want you to keep it in your mind and keep trying... that's why I bring it up even though I know you know that already. Also with depression we may not trust our own instincts so it is good to have some feedback.

Good luck with this. If you can find a social worker or family services person or someone who "knows the system" and can advocate for you, that this may be much easier for you. Also I know you are very alone, but keep your eyes open for friends. It is so difficult because we isolate ourselves but sometimes there is someone there willing to help and we don't even notice them.

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