Today, not so good keeping the negative thoughts at bay. Started off PO'd for being put in a situation. Downhill from there. I *did* manage to get out for car gas and into a crowded warehouse store (ugh) for a couple of things. Sensory overload and very uncomfortable, but so depressed that I didn't give enough of a **** to do anything about it. It made me semi-detached and the whole scene surreal and fogged. Came home and ate a little meal. The place is a mess. Haven't done anything. Don't care.

Debating now whether to just end this day and go to bed (ridiculously early) or stay up and zone out watching dvds on the computer. After scheduling an appointment. Guess it's time to admit I'm really not doing ok.