Well, I had recently started med school and well, due to my ADHD combined with anxiety, I've had to take a gap year (results were poor). Was studying in uk...

During my time at school there had been various girls I interacted with, yet one stood out more than the rest. We were never really dating, or exclusive. In fact we had gone on one date, done some work together and that was it.

The week prior to my notification that I had to leave UK to resit next year, she text me to see how I was doing and if I was around. The following day we met up. I cooked her lunch, she made me dinner. We chatted, played some video games and finished with a movie.

I knew I was leaving, and I wanted to steal a kiss. However the night led us being fully intimate. Towards the end, she had a panic attack, to which she later told me about how her uncle abused her...

With all of this happening I failed to tell her about me leaving till it was too late. At the airport we talked. I wanted to move to Australia, and she wanted to remain in the UK. We indirectly expressed how we'd keep in touch but that we do our own thing.

We messaged each other constantly for a few days after I came back, but we haven't spoken in two days. Considerably different since we've been sending messages back and forth the past week, some of which were still pretty warm.

I don't know what to do. I really miss the girl. I really care for her. I feel bad I wasn't romantic enough with her and that we went that far without me telling her. I screwed up. I'm very flawed.

I want her, but I don't want to hurt her and would rather feel like **** without her, than me pushing myself onto her and making her feel bad. Don't know if the communication stop is her way of moving on?

I'm crossed between sending her flowers...or just letting her move on.