I was cleaning the stall and loaded the wheel barrow way too full and then all of sudden to left of me I hear "You f****** idiot you know your going to dump that wheelbarrow! Don't you even know how to load a damn wheeblarrow?" I look to my side and no one was there....all of a sudden i realized he was back! I smiled and I said thank you, welcome back! He said "Don't get use to it we're just here help you through this because you are too much of a wimp to do this by yourself"! I just smiled! Then my other voice on the right side said "You can do this we know you can do it. We know it's hard but you can do this!" Then my main voice said "We never left and we never will. We will be here when you need us. That is why you created us. We are here to help in your time of need. Remember you may think were gone but we are not. If were silent it is because you have chosen to cope without us. Just know it is always your choice if you need us. When you are ready we will be silent again, but for now you need us and we are here until you have the strength again."

Maladaptive or not. They are back and all of a sudden I have hope!