I'm depressed because my life blows. I'm trapped, and there's no getting out of it.

Sometimes I'll be in a really good mood for a very long time, and think to myself; "John, just buck up! All you have to do is try!" So I clean myself up, and apply for jobs, ask a girl out, or take a class. Sometimes this good mood lasts a long time... But it slowly weighs on me. Hundred's of applications... nobody will hire me. A month of actively trying to get a date for a wedding? No dice. The class that I was so eager to finish? Yeah. Failed.

So why try, over and over and over again if all I do is fail? It's not like I just got depressed and let go. I'm depressed for real reasons. People say "It's just a chemical imbalance." Or "Are you on meds, they should try another one."

Nope. Not a chemical imbalance. Isn't it okay to just be sad because your life sucks?

No friends. Family barely talks to me. I have a daughter, that is 3, and literally the ONLY reason I'm still alive. It's unfair to her to kill myself, but unfair to myself to remain alive. So yep. Purgatory.

I don't even know why I'm posting this. Nothing you guys can do can help, haha. All people say is the standard ******** that comes out of every cut and paste version of support.

"You have so much to live for."
"Whenever you get sad, just think about your daughter."
"Don't talk like that times are tough, just gotta plow through."
"Yeah I'm sad too. You're not alone."
"Sounds like you need a hobby."
"Sounds like you need meds."

I wonder if there's any real help.