Had a nightmare about feeling so bad I was wondering whether to go to the ER. I saw someone who passed away who was dear to me because apparently he had received my text asking whether I should. I'm tired of these kinds of dreams. I want to rest when I'm asleep. I'm worried enough about my exam tomorrow that I managed to wake up. Hopefully I stay up.

In reality I'm doing fine. Really. Going back on a medication helped. And I'm back in dorms, where I won't be triggered as much by my family, whom I love, but for different reasons can really mess with my mood.