I completely understand. I'm 15, so I know hwo this struggele goes. I'm actually kinda stuck on this myself. I find myself looking at a guy I really like, then looking at one of my good girlfreinds, and thinking about kissing them. But, it'll get better. Just chill out, and what happens, happens, don't try to force any certain direction on yourself, cause in the end that's jsut going to hurt you more. So, be yourself, and see what happens.