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UCLAFan
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Default May 03, 2007 at 11:14 PM
 
Those who have been verbally abused. Is there ever a way to get over it and no longer be depressed? Just asking because i wish there was a way.When i was 7 years old i was diganosed with having Epilepsy. Several family members. Including my mom,dad and my older sister would call me stupid,retard, slut etc. My mom even tried to have me put in a group home. But i have never had grand mal's and have been able to function on my own.My mom denies she ever said anything negative to me. But i'm 36 and at times she can still be verbally abusive to me and others .Luckily i'm in IL on my own and she is in Texas.My mom and others has always treated me like the black sheep in the family.My sister use to make me wait on her hand and foot when i was growing up. When i'd get tired of waiting on her. She'd call me a lazy retarded ***** and other names. She has 2 kids and i have only been around her and her kids 4 times in like the last 17 years.Her oldest daughter who is 16 has called me names to a few times.My mom recently contacted my social worker from the Epilepsy association and told her that she thinks i have Tourettes and Autsim. Which i and my social worker know i don't have at all. Even after living on my own since early 1989. My mom still treats me like i'm a retard. My father died 3 or 4 years ago. I did not cry when i heard of his death. I was not around him after i turned 18.He called me names and use to hit me.But ignore me when he was not abusing me. I felt numb when i heard he died.Why do people abuse people? To this day i don't get it.Still single and in fear of relationships. Last serious relationship i had in 1996 ended up being a abusive one.But i'm lonely and my biggest fear in life is never really being loved.

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