because they helped me write them. but even to say that isn't right. i %#@&#! told him already. how i conceive of them. and he just %#@&#! ignores that and continues conceiving of them how he conceives of them. like with the things that i say are important to me he just ignores those too and just keeps on with the things that he thinks are important to me.

he keeps saying 'i'm not your mother'

%#@&#! no %#@&#!.

father mr. my father left me, you went away. kt wrote she felt abandoned. oh yeah thats cause we are seeing you as my mother. for ****s sake.

anger is easier for him to deal with. that must be it.

i really don't know that this is going to work

he repeatedly fails to deal with W. keeps casting what W. said into something he did not say. deals with that. like how i told him that Linehan said some stuff about people with BPD often needing to learn to look after their therapists and i thought i could get better with that because there was a bit of a history with that. and he was like 'i disagree with Linehan about that, i think it is solely the therapists responsibility...' and went on... and i was like 'when there is a repeating pattern its probably worthwhile looking at how you are contributing to it'. thats all we ever %#@&#! meant to say about that.

what happened to relational theory there?

i don't know what he is up to. anger is meant to be a way of asserting yourself. maybe he wants me to say what i really think. maybe...

but i really don't think it is likely. unthinking. i'm fairly sure that it is just that he is unthinking really. i get it. he has a fear of getting overinvolved 'cause thats happened before. i'm not %#@&#! stupid. i know how to use google.

disillusioned.