So I have an appt. with my therapist today and I am really nervous. She said all the cards would be off the table. I really want to self Harm but I know that will only add to the fire. I am extremely Depressed and I can not shake it. I've been taking my medications like I am suppose to and I've done every coping skill under the book. I just do not care anymore. It's hard for me to focus and I feel like things just do not matter. I love my family and do not want to hurt them, but the pain over weighs everything. I feel if I go inpatient again my family will disown me and I can not take anymore loss. The next logical step is to just give up. Yeah they will hurt now but I am hurting them now by putting them through all this mental and Financial Stress. weighing the pros and cons are not really going in the right direction. Well Thank you for listening.

Tired and Hurting
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