Can I just add that i have no sweet clue how i feel about anything right now? What am I looking for help for by going to see a T? Do I just want to keep seeing someone so that I feel “different” than others? So I can say that I can relate to being depressed? So I can say that I’ve been there, and that so when someone asks me how I am I can say I’m only “okay” and have something to justify that with? Am I looking for sympathy? Empathy? Anything? First of all .. if any of that is true what kind of person does that make me? Certainly not anyone i want to be ... anyone that i ever though i was. What does this all mean? I’m so confused right now … and if I were to see a new T… what would I go in and say? I’d have to explain my family I guess … but I think I’m moderately okay with how things are going there. If I were to just go in and be like .. yeaah, I don’t know whats wrong with me. Sometimes I’m happy, and sometimes it feels like there is this underlying sadness that follows me wherever I go? Oh, but sometimes I feel like I’m just making stuff up, so I might be wasting your time. By the way I don’t really have a lot to say … just that I don’t know how I feel. Okay? Cool? Okay now your turn to talk. – I don’t think so. They’d just think I’m some whack job who wants to come in and complain and waste their time while they have actual people with actual problems to take care of. ASLDKFJALSKDFJASD

I'm sorry .. i'm making absolutely NO sense what-so-ever right now .. feel free to ignore