it's pronounced "Why is my mind blank"... It's an inside joke with an ex girlfriend, I somehow made my gamer tag a really really long time ago when I was like 14, but I appreciate that.

I also feel happy being different at times, because I don't identify myself as american at all. I am a pure scot at heart, like my grandma and my mom. I don't like living in america, I don't think it be better in the UK. I have been achieving an accent overtaking my american local city accent in cincinnati.
I tell my feelings, because I don't have that at all here. I'm hoping to see my therapist shortly this week or next week. I am now, I've been in a mood of no longer isolating myself for long periods of time. I was struggling with another stressful friendship and relationship I have with this girl recently and generally my friends too. I've been fixing loose ends on my sorta burned bridges which is good, and my life looks like it would be much brighter than I may actually conceptualize, but I don't know to be honest.
I think the only way to help myself is be involved with people again. Whether it's venting on here or making friendships in my area.
I hope one day I can visit my family in the UK. I have more family there than anywhere else in the world. I mean america is awesome, but I don't feel free now matter where.

So going to a place where I have some identity makes me feel good about myself to feel belong to something even if you weren't born there.

I thought I should say that, because I get excited with people who are from there and have accents.

My grandmother and mom and my aunt were all born in edinburgh, in her old neighbor hood of fernieside Ln, but no one we know lives there anymore. This was many many years ago.