It's not so much I feel I need to be "boring", it's more the feeling that I need change- the urgent feeling that makes me cut off my hair on a whim etc. It's a good thing my tattoo artist books 3 weeks in advance or else I would probably be completely covered.

It is so difficult to explain. I think in a way I use my appearance as a wall. To pretend I am tough and confident. To stand out yet be able to hide inside. Ugh- I can't put into words what I want to say.