T3: What did your friends or other people do, or not do, that made a difference?

In reality I didn't have any friends.....acquaintances didn't know what I was going through, people I met in the psych hospital were more harmful on the outside. Church people had no idea how to handle my suicide attempts & had no understanding & just couldn't comprehend what could be so bad......but in reality....I didn't know either I just knew that I felt trapped where I was & at that time didn't realize just how much my bad marriage was a part of the problem....so how could anyone else understand either.....it wasn't like he was physically abusive.....& over the last few months, I have come to understand that it was the serious dysfunctional behavior that was the problem that came across as emotionally abusive. In all his dysfunctional being, H did the nice things there just was NO emotional connection which was what I really needed....but I always blamed in on myself....only lately I have come to realize after leaving him that it wasn't me that was the problem & I am finding that I am more normal than I ever imagined......growing up with dysfunctional parents......my mom was there during my major depression & suicide attempts....but she was like my H....she was there because it was the right thing to do....but there was NO connection that I could ever feel.....I really feel that the lack of connection was the most serious of problems not having anyone to connect to.....& there was no one in my life that I could find that kind of connection with.....so I ended up just surviving.