phenix, you need to realize that with PTSD the main challenge is "stress" because that is how a person develops PTSD, it is a build up of stress where something can trigger a stress breakdown to take place.

The challenges you are having right now that are overwhelming you means you need to slow down are take things one day at a time. You are dealing with being "overwhelmed" right now and any added stress can be very hard on you right now.

It is going to take you time to work through the challenges that you have discribed here, which is just "some" of your overall challenge. You are going to have to slowly learn how to gain on practicing "self care and self soothing" so you learn how to reduce the "stress" that typically people who struggle only feed into unknowingly.

You can't change what happened to you in your past, but, you can work through it and slowly identify the "stess" that you have harbored from that experience and get to a level of finally making piece with it, seeing how you may have adapted to "bad" coping mechanisms that you just did not realize that is finally coming out in the now "stess overwhelm you are experiencing".

The truth is that a lot of people utilize "unhealthy coping mechanisms" and these all lead to being "stressed" which "anyone" can develop even "depression" as a result, or do other things in their lives to try to "cope" because they just don't understand how else to cope.

Honestly, as you learn how to "structure" your healing, you will continue to make gains on your ability to cope more and "stress" less. Each person will be different depending on what their history is, however, believe me, you are not alone in needing to learn better skills in managing your stress levels. You can "hate the stress" but not yourself, you are on a journey of healing, that is all and you are not alone with that challenge either.

((Caring Gentle Hugs)))
OE