Here I am jittery as all hell. I skipped any pleasant hypomanic or euphoric manic phase I might have had and went straight to agitated jittery hell. Can't sit still, want to crawl out of my skin, negative thoughts running through my mind like rabbits.

I figured the 450mg of Wellbutrin was going to go way overboard but I thought maybe not this time, maybe not. Maybe the ap and ms will keep it down. But no it's broken through both of them, jumping up just to yell haHA I got ya, you'll never just be stable!

I think part of it is my job stressin me out. How can I get stable with all this work stress taking me down? But I can't quit. So what can I do.

All I know is thank god I am on an ap right now because without it I would be incomprehensible. I can slow my mind down enough to write. I just think this is unfair.

How do you keep calm during mixed states?