I already have a pdoc appt Wednesday so no need to call her. Thankfully it seems that his is going in and out - the agitation is ebbing and flowing. When I sit down I'm agitated and need to get up but the invega seems to be keeping a lid on most of the suicidal thoughts I usually get. The self harm thoughts are still there but not as intrusive as usual.

I have klonopin to take as prn so I've been taking that I just forgot to take it this morning before I went to work.

Ugh I just can't sit still I hate that feeling of not being able to just sit and be quiet and have a quiet mind. I hate the negative thoughts. If I break a glass or something by accident tonight I'm done for. So hope that I don't drop any glassware.

I would hate to think of where I would be without the invega. This would be completely negative. At least I'm having flashes of happy hypo.

I don't know wtf is happening righ now :-/