Dear T,

At this point, midway between sessions I find the need to talk to you. I miss you so much. I am worried about so many things and they become a jumbled mess in my mind fighting for position, or masking myself from appearing. I am so proud that I did not dissociate last session. I felt so grounded when I left your office this week and I wish I felt that way right now. However, the anxiety has returned and I wish I could see you again today. I guess the right thing to do would be to ask myself what I need right now. I certainly don't need to be laying here in bed writing a letter but i should get up and meditate!

This week I sensed that our relationship is deepening and for the first time, felt ok with that. I know that we grow as humans within the context of interpersonal relationships and through sharing of ourselves. It's just soooo hard sometimes to make the connection, and then yet another challenge to sustain it. As you know, I often feel so disconnected from myself and from other people, a little pile of fragments needing a magnet to pull me together.

Well, since this isn't a real session I won't continue but will get up and mediatate and take care of myself somehow so I can take care of my family as well.

Hope you are having a nice day and enjoy the weekend.

Best regards,

Sister