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Originally Posted by MotownJohnny
OE, I really wonder. He was a paranoid delusional with both the jealous and persecution beliefs. His mother was every bit as nuts as he was.
Maybe I've got it, too. My fear of "they're coming to take me away" is so strong and so persistent. It sure sounds like the description in the snippet.
Does it matter if I know, recognize, and verbalized intellectually that it is not literally true? I know they can't lock me in the psych ward, but I fear it so intensely it makes me shudder just to think about it.
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No, you are not like him Mowtown, you are struggling with how he affected you. You were the only "voice of reason" in your home too. Your sisters and mother enabled your father.
I agree with Hankster, your father only instilled that in you, but you can work your way out of that.
I went through a period where I was very confused that way myself, it took me time to get past that, but I am on the other side of it with a much better understanding of how certain things affected me in ways I had not realized.
You are not the same as your father, my guess is you take after your mother's side, often the male child is more of the mother's genetics than the fathers. You are not exhibiting the same symptoms as your father, your father would not interact in this forum as you have either. Your challenges are "classic" of a child that endured the kind of abuse you experienced in your childhood.
OE