Thank you guys and gals,

That was very hard for me to admit and I even shy'd away from the forums for a few days because of it. I thank you for being understanding and non-judgmental.

I will absolutely bring this up in my therapy now that I'm starting DBT soon. I think it might bring insight into some of my problems, if not - explore the reasons for these desires and comforts that I have... It's really strange. I can control it, it does not control me nor does it affect anyone else in my life - so it is not a detriment to my life in anyway that I can see.

One thing that has come to mind over the years - is that it is a form of regression, and perhaps by doing it over time I am in a way - choosing to step back rather than forward... Maybe, I dunno - it's confusing for me because I'm the one it effects...

Thank you for being honest and understanding. That helps me more than you will know.

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