Thanks everyone for your support. My GP is making one last appeal to the community mental health team. I should hear in about a week. After that then credit cards and private health care. Hopefully, if I can get a private report then the local services might have to take me on, but if they don't then I'll need a budget of about £12k per annum apparently, that's a decent car. I don't have a card with that limit so the only other option is remortgage. Either way, the costs could bankrupt me.

In April 2015 there are new rules for the NHS with patient rights for mental health. At the moment if I have a physical illness I have the right to consultant led treatment within 18 weeks of referral, mental health just doesn't have the same protection. Even next April the rights won't be comprehensive but it might get me (and others like me) some help.

Anyway, I'm going to keep a low profile for a few days, I need to empty my head. I'll be around on PM or my profile page, just I don't feel up to posting as I've nothing more I can say.