((( sister )))

What a sweet letter to your T! It's so hard missing them. What a wonderful feeling to feel your relationship with your T deepening. It sounds like that's comforting to you and helped you to not dissociate. Good for you for not dissociating ~and~ for feeling proud of yourself!

I have a hard time connecting and staying connected too. It seems fragile to me, as if every encounter is an audition I must pass or fail and that is so hard, exhausting. I don't know how to sustain them. Hopefully I'll learn in therapy.