I have school work to do tonight and I can't even imagine getting it done, nor can I imagine going to work tomorrow. All I want to do is take my benzo and sleep forever until this is over. I can't deal with those crazy kids tomorrow when I'm just as crazy especially when I didn't actually plan any lessons because I was crazy over the weekend too. I'm hangin on by a thin wire this year and it's only October. How do I get out of this?

I am trying to breathe but my son is making it difficult. I'm losing patience with him and I'm afraid of hurting him. My husband is at an NA meeting so he can't help right now. Only 45 minutes until bedtime for my son. We can make it until then. I won't lose my temper. I wish I were a better mom.

Thanks for listening.