I actually understand where you are coming from, mouse. Sometimes, I feel as though I hold on to my "state" at times, because I am afraid of being "normal" and all that it applies. Hard to explain, but I have become "comfortable" in my illness and any change to that upsets the status quo of my life. Even those around me get a little confused as to what to do, as they too, have become comfortable with my behaviours, emotional ups and downs, etc. (Not implying that they will always be accepting of this though).

I think it is just another aspect of my illness that I have to fight. Habits are very hard to break.

AS