Hope this depression is just hormonal. First full day off flow. This sucks. Having SI thoughts. Head hurts so bad. Want to crash and never get up again. What the f×÷! Is wrong with my brain? It's attacking me from the inside trying to make this life unbearable. Is starting to work. I've been crying most of the evening and was sobbing for a bit of it. Need to try to sleep. Eugh...