I have rewritten this post about 15 times and am even now hestent to add my two cents.

First the term for people who have a desire to wear diapers is a diaper lover you can search more about it by googling AB/DL.

My earliest memory is of the same desire. In my case I was an only son with 3 sisters all of whom wet the bed. My mother who also suffered from BPD, spent the majority of her time (20+ hours a day) on the couch listening to music to drown out her thoughts. The only interaction with any of us in a non-abusive manor was to put diapers on my sisters each night. I was always sent to my room at that time to be alone. Needless to say I now associate feelings of comfort with them.

Ironically, I hate this about myself and try desperately from fulfilling this desire. For the most part I am successful but in periods of high stress I find my thoughts (and yes dreams as well) draw to them. If I give in however I feel good until the stress passes then I hate myself for giving in. Its a self abusive cycle. Unfortunately it is one of my few coping mechanisms and I'm still looking for a way to replace it.

All of that being said as long as you do not fall into that type of cycle its all good and you don't really need to bring it up, if yo are looking for support from other DL's there are forums that can help you with it PM me and I can send you more informatio.. On the other hand if you do fall into the same cycle as I do, it is important that you share with your therapist. The best way I have found to do this is to write it down and then hand it to him/her. From experince I wouldn't expect anything more then a raised eyebrow. Most seem as uncomfortable as I was in discussing it (although this might be my seeing reactions and feelings that aren't there) and none had experience in dealing with it and at the least needed to research it.

Anyway that's my take on it I hope I didn't weird anyone out.