Hello, Wilamh
I am sorry to hear of all the tragedy you have been through in life. I want to Welcome you to the Forums, and say that I believe these things are genetic as there is history of mental illness on both sides of my family, and I recvd, the most of em'.
Take care and let us know how things are going for you, I wish you hope and best wishes- Chris
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~KRIS~
If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!