Today started off as a lovely day. I was enjoying the sun, the beauty, and then some events happened that flipped me right around. I witnessed a horrible motorcycle accident. It happened right in front of my face. I stopped and helped the police, gave details and comforted the lady who was hit by the motorcycle while the paramedics took care of the motorcyclist. Then I had some family problems which just spun my emotions out of control. I tried so hard to control that burst of emotion inside me by counting trees on the ride home and tried to regulate things but just couldn't. I got so overwhelmed with emotion I slammed my phone into my head and broke down. I am so tired if feeling this way. I am so tired of losing control and not being able to handle situations life throws at you. I am exhausted and over it.