CosmicRose - I read your response a few days ago but hadn't and the chance to write back until now. I just wanted to say thank you. It's really nice to have someone recognize how had teaching is, and give me some support. I managed to go back to work on Friday for the afternoon and my students all ran to give me hugs. I treasure those moments. Unfortunately, I don't know that I can keep up with the daily stress and anxiety that the job provides, so I don't know how much longer I will continue to do it. But I do love spending time with kiddos, so your idea of finding something where I can work with kids but have to perform is a good suggestion. Again, thank you for your support