In T today I was talking about my American friend that stayed with me. I told T that I had seen some qualities in her that I saw in my mother.

T then said was that why my last session I was angry? I said I don't know, maybe, but how do I know what is the real relationship in here if all the time you are telling me that my feelings are not about us in this room but about outside stuff?

T said that some of it will be to do with us but also at my mothers, and notice the plural, not singular mothers, as I do have 2 mothers to be angry at LOL!

But my question is, why can't I just be angry at the original source? Is it so unconsious that we hold these mothers inside of us, still protecting them and deflecting our anger and pain at other sources?

Does directing the anger and pain at the original source seperate us from these internalised mothers? Do we hold them at some level inside us, relating to them still as if it was back then? Afriad to let go of them?

Dam I wish I'd thought of this in session LOL.