I appreciate the time and effort all of you have put into reading, thinking about, and responding to my inquiry, however I may disagree with your consensus. From what I've read depression robs you of drive because it makes you question the point of doing things. I see the point in why people as a whole would choose to do certain things. My problem is that what I do is of inferior quality to what other people do, so I don't want to add yet another failure to the mountain thus I have difficulty doing anything active as opposed to passive. All I do is fail. All I ever do is fail. When I try I fail. When I don't try I fail. I can't have fun not because I fail to see the point but because I fail full stop.