I totally understand. You may have already read some of my posts this week so I'll be brief. I started therapy over a year ago to help my son. I ended up admitting to the T that I had a pot addiction. I've been using for over 30 years. He has been helping me recover from that. He pursuaded me to join the N/A fellowship.

Now I'm dealing with all the underlying issues I didn't deal with in the past. I've told T everything about me. It's all been ok. Just this week I've been going through some deep emotional pain. I don't know what to do with it. I am very self destructive. I didn't do anything to hurt myself, expept I haven't been eating much.

I've reached out to my family Dr., I called my T and talked to him, which I never do in between sessions. He's glad I called because it shows I'm reaching out for help, which I also never have done. Just hearing his voice comforted me. I got together with my sponsor and finally told her everything about me. Trust for me is a leap of faith. She understood everything and it was ok.

I still miss my T. I see him weekly and it's a long time between session. Especially this week. He makes me feel important and treats me like a worthwile human. I've been abused all of my life so I didn't know what that felt like. He saved my life. I feel I have something other people don't have and they can't take it from me and I don't want to ever let it go.