Echoes,

Yes, I can relate to the audition feeling. It's so exhausting isn't it? Why can't we just relax and be ourselves? Maybe because we're not sure who we are......

Thanks for your kind words.

Raceka,

When i say I am fragmented i mean that I feel I have separate pieces of myself and they are not all integrated at the moment so I don't feel "together." I literally feel like I am in pieces strewn all around. My T did not use the word fragmented. He rarely says things like that because he does not like to put words in my mouth. However, if i say something he disagrees with he will challenge me. That's how I move ahead. (His silence is therefore validating at times.)