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Old Oct 07, 2014, 08:39 AM
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I don't particularly feel my T feels any different towards me then she does towards any other client. if she did I don't think it would be to care about me to any greater degree .in fact probably the opposite . with being special or cared about more comes with greater expectations. probably ones I am not prepared to meet so I like it the way it is most of the time . although some times I feel it would be nice to feel cared about by my T
When I told my T about the maternal transference I had towards her, she responded by saying she felt the same towards me, like I was a child of hers. And I panicked at first and told her I didn't know what she wanted from me because of that. I thought that she felt that way because she wanted something from me or wanted me to be a certain way. My past had conditioned me to believe that parents require me to conform to who they want, and fulfill their needs. So I was panicking because I didn't know how to do that with my T. She had to insist that she didn't want anything from me other than for me to show up and be myself. She didn't want me to fulfill any of her needs or pretend to be a certain way in order to fit into what she expected from me. I'm still not sure I believe that, but I don't feel the same type of panick over it.
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