I can relate somewhat, in that I preferred my 'delusional' state, and dreams and sleeping...

From what you write it seems you might need to work on your self-esteem. My therapist had me write a list of my good characteristics (at least 10 or 15!) and a list of my accomplishments (again, 10 or 15). I still need to work on it, it's a continous effort.

You are all those good things too!! Remember!!

Everyone has good things and what could be improved, there's no 'perfect' people (or they would be very boring/annoying!!) We are colorful characters that make the world prettier & more interesting!!