I'm learning so much more from you all.

Pink, my mom was the same way everything was a bother. I remember around age 6 or 7 coming into the living room to ask her to put a barrette in my hair. She completely lost it and started hollering/screaming to leave her alone.

On weekends growing up, we learned, if mom is on the couch sleeping or reading...tip toe around the house or she'll freak out.

This is why I have an assertiveness problem. Just a simple question of 'can I go to the mall' or 'go outside' took me hours to finally get up the nerve to ask. My dad was very similar but he worked a lot so mom was the one who was around all the time.

I don't have the guts to intentionally cross boundaries with my T. I just hint around by saying 'okay martinis are on you'...stuff like that.

He always handles it with a smile. It does hurt though when transference or the word boundary is used to me by him. It feels like I do not matter to him one bit. I know this isn't true but it triggers me for sure. Look, I'm obsessing over this again.

And, now I'm still 14 days from my next session. I really need to stop counting this is making me more upset.