You'll always run into people who seem to not like you for any reason. You need to focus on the people you meet with whom you have a sympathetic or good rapport. The ones who don't like you probably don't know anything about you, much less that you struggle with certain conditions. I am usually treated like I don't belong at places because I'm uncomfortable and ill at ease. I got over it more or less when I was younger but now I'm going through a whole new constellation of problems and what people think of me is really beside the point for me now.
When I was in benzo withdrawal at the hospital I had a whole bunch of new experiences with dissociation. I saw myself as others did and I was very insignificant and uninteresting from that perspective. No one is ever going to really know you, so they're not going to know your conditions or anything you go through either. If anyone reacts negatively towards you, it could be your outfit, your hair, any one of a thousand tiny details about how you appear in that moment. If they find out about diagnoses it may or may not make a difference. But you are not very important to the vast majority of people you're going to run into. I don't mean that in an unkind way, but they'll do their own inner estimation of you, favorable or otherwise, and go on about their lives.
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