(((Lady Lindsey)))
I know how you feel with physical as well as emotional pain. And the bit about just driving off the road - well, let's just say that sounds very familiar.
Just because you have some things in your life which to an outsider would look as if you were fortunate doesn't negate the hardship you are going through. It isn't any easier for you.
Desperation feels the same, dreadful, imprisoning terror no matter what the surrounding circumstances - so don't feel that you are whinging.
It's ok to vent, it's ok to feel that things aren't fair, it's ok to want comfort. We are here for you.
Bluegrey