Being motivated, I'd say my reasons are mostly because I'm excited about doing it. Most of my intentions are to leave scars on purpose. I don't know why, but thoughts of doing that pushes me to want to do it often or more. Throughout a few years, I've dealt with it pretty fairly, but after so long, I'd notice, I'm no longer that consciously aware of when I do it. The first time I understood the signs when it came to SI was I'd be completely out of my state of mind and have a lack of conscience. All I remember was I paced around the room and listen to music.

I never really consider sadness or anger a fuel to do it like some or most people. I had beaten myself up over anger before but fortunately I don't do that anymore.

Overall I've never noticed my habits ever change as to how I do it.