My first post here. I’ve been reading/following for awhile, trying to process things. Hoping people here could help give me some perspective.

My therapist broke up with me yesterday. Last week I told him I was having confusing feelings about therapy, and about him (I’m female, by the way), because my relationship with my husband wasn’t as strong as it could be. My therapist encouraged me to talk about it, and said that that kind of transference was not abnormal and that he could handle it just fine. He wanted me to take the week to think about it, and make sure I still felt comfortable seeing him. I went back yesterday and told him that I work hard in therapy, and that is what is paramount. My boundaries are clear and so are his, so my focus would continue to be on the work I’ve been doing. He then informed me, that after consulting a peer, he’s decided it would be unethical for him to keep seeing me. That it would end up doing me more harm then good. And that today would be our last session. That’s it. Understandably, I think, I got a little upset. I told him that he encouraged me to talk about it, that it was safe, that I was safe, and now I was suffering the consequences. After me going on like this for 10 minutes or so, he informs me out of the blue that a friend of his committed suicide on the weekend. WTF? Now I feel angry AND awful, for being angry at him. We’d had such a good therapeutic relationship, and I’m saddened and confused as to why it’s ended like this. Therapy has helped me immensely, but I still had things I was processing (obviously!) I guess I’m just seeking advice or reassurance. I feel like I’ve been thrown to the wolves.