I am so sorry you're having such a bad day.

When I hit rock bottom, it took a monumental effort to ask someone to help me (I am not talking about therapy, I am talking about the most simple of tasks of calling and making a doctor's appointment and taking me to it).

Is there anyone that you can turn to who can help you for a while? Until you have the strength to help yourself? Perhaps write a short SOS email to someone capable?