I would really appreciate some advice from all you lovely folk at PC.
Background info:
I'm currently about 1/3 of the way through the fall semester at my college.
I was diagnosed bipolar 2 w/ ultra rapid cycling about two months ago.
My first pdoc appointment is tomorrow (wish me luck)

Basically I really need to get things in gear and start working on my school work, but between the anxiety levels and unmedicated bipolar it's proven to be very difficult. I've missed all of school last week and yesterday. I've also missed two tests. Like I said before I have my first pdoc appointment tomorrow, but I needed to start feeling better like yesterday. I have two options at this point. One, try to push through even though I'm ridiculously behind and realistically probably won't feel better immediately because it takes a while to find the right meds. This option on paper sounds the best, but I'm really afraid this will put too much pressure on me which would be awful. I also would have to start cracking down tonight as I have homework do tomorrow, but just the thought of sitting down and trying is nauseating. I really want to stay in school, but I'm just afraid it will also send me in a downward spiral.

Option two is to take a medical leave and retake the same classes next semester. The problem with this option is while it relieves me of almost all stress I will have nothing to do with my time. This is bad because I really don't want to spend a lot of time at home because I live in a toxic environment that I can't really get out of. I also don't want this to fuel my depression and make me feel worthless. I'm afraid that I might never want to go back to school if I take a leave now because all I'll remember is this awful level of stress and anxiety and not any of the good things about it.

I'm really torn. Have any of you guys been in this situation? Like I said before all opinions and thoughts are welcome. I really appreciate it.