Hello, I have social anxiety. I'm currently in high school, and I'm 15. I really hate it there now. I always feel scared and uncomfortable around people unless if I know them really well. It's kind of ridiculous, and it makes me feel like I'm gonna die alone.

Sophomore year I finally came up with the idea of going to a psychologist for treatment. A few problems have occurred, though. My father can't afford it without insurance. Most places don't accept my insurance. Second is that I contacted Miami Children's Hospital. They accept the insurance, but it'll take a really long time to get an appointment. They also want to prescribe me drugs. My father is against the idea, and he has no where else to try and is not willing to do anything else.

I am suffering, and I am considering suicide. The only thing preventing myself is my religious belief of going to Hell if I commit suicide. I think about it often, though.

I really need help, and I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I'm in so much mental pain. help me