I've been sleeping rather badly and feeling really crappy, mentally - irritable, lonely, sad, confused, all in a lovely heap. I could have slept in this morning if I hadn't had a meeting with two students... who never showed up for their tutorial. I'm sure they had good reason, but I can't understand why they didn't email and tell me. I spent a couple of hours preparing for the tutorial, too. Grrr.

And I don't want to go back to therapy, ever. I will go back of course, but I just don't want to. I am too broken for it to work.