I am clinically diagnosed Bipolar 1. Since 2009. I still to this day, have no clue what a manic episode is. Yea i know the technical definition, but I dont feel as if i have ever expierenced it to the point i KNOW what it is. When im done and reflect i can think "ok im alittle manic". Point im trying to make here is the internet and research can be a bad thing. You can obsess over something that, may not even be true, and look for answers constantly. Then through your research and obsession you start to manifest the actions of your obsession inside yourself and pretend it to be true believing its true.