Thanks everyone.
I blocked them from my e-mail account and my Facebook. So, we've had no contact from them for about 2 weeks. It has been nice. I need space, sometimes I think Mars wouldn't be far enough. Sometimes, they would pay back the money and other times they couldn't. But, they always had money to spend on cult sponsored trips . . .
I met with a cult psychologist. He said that I will always feel a little weird in society, and a I still catch myself feeling weird or first seeing a news event through cult eyes. Because I grew up in a cult, I don't have a "normal base" to go back to. I think I would get along in a foreign country just swell, because that is how I sometimes feel living in my own culture. My brother moved to South America for years after he left the cult, because it felt reasonable to live in a culture he didn't fit in and there was an obvious reason he didn't understand it. I catch myself thinking in black & white, and then try to move on from there to see grey. It is a battle to live a "normal" life, but it's worth it. The control and manipulation that a cult puts on you is absolutely devastating.
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