^also suicide has nothing to do with being 'selfish' thinking about it isn't 'selfish' its a point people get to when under too much stress, dealing with to much mental turmoil so do not feel guilty about having these thoughts or beat yourself up over how selfish it is to your kid if you follow through...certainly do try and get help and support and do what you can not to act on it, but trying to not act on it because 'OMG it would be so selfish of me' won't do anything to make you feel better. Just had to disagree with some stuff in this thread.